Sunday, August 06, 2006
sad.
hmms. so long never blog le.hmms. star from yesterday yar?
yesterday i wasn't in the mood.
in class got 1 guy disturb me.
then i cried.
feeling down still wan disturb.
hais.
after that went home get my P.E. shirt.
amirah accompany me back home.
took alreadi then went to the bus stop.
on the way to the bus stop.
read a very sad msg.
can't take it. cried.
amirah try to cheer me up.
faat also. she cheer me up on phone.
in sch. still crying.
my squadmates try to cheer me up.
even my sir.
keep saying he is cute.
the truth is, he is not. =X
kept crying till 2.
then cool down abit.
went to change.
bring the 16 girls from china to put their bags.
after that bring them down.
didn't really talk to them.
cus no mood. felt bad.
after that they go play games.
after a while i took charge of sec 1 and 2.
they totally made me piss off.
scold them till almost cry.
but didn't as i can't cry infront of them.
i can't show them that i'm weak.
scold and talk and teach for so long.
they dun listen.
we bring them to do PT.
kinda pity them.
cut short arh.
i went home then dunno wad happen.
like not myself.
kept crying. dunno wad i do then get 4 cuts.
hais. careless.
Today in the MRT i cried again.
keep thinking about somethings.
got 1 guy ask amirah for my no. she dun wan give.
then he ask for her no. she also dun wan give.
she even say she got bf.
then amirah went to talk to 2 of our NDP friends.
the guy kept looking at me.
then like keep coming closer.
then i moved.
ask amirah and my friends to go to our sir kok hwa.
we told him wad happen then he laugh.
hais.
after awhile sir left that guy alreadi left.
after that met up with 4 of our friends.
on the way to HTA, frederick talk to me.
cheer me up but i cry.
hais. they tried to cheer me up.
but during the last 2 training i smile a bit okies.
and i even talk! thanks to them. cheering me up.
hais. wonder wad am i going to do if NDP is over.
sad. hais.
3:20 am